who's asking?
trying to figure out who i am
I wish I had more to share on this about page. I guess that will come with time. I don't really know why I feel the need to include this page, when there is so little that I do know. Maybe soon enough I can fill in all the blanks not just for you but for me. Maybe part of that is for you, but for the meantime, I know that I need something too.
I know that there are things worth sharing and worth knowing about yourself, but right now it feels like I can't even get past the little things. I hate that I keep running into roadblocks and even when I pass some, it doesn't feel like I have the control or freedom or knowledge or whatever I need to feel like I've made meaningful progress. It's just slow and something keeps bringing me back.
There's this nothing that doesn't seem to leave me alone. Always in the background, waiting for the distractions to leave. My phone to need to charge, K going to work, nothing good on tv. Then it's just me and the feeling.
some things i've liked gazing at lately
- the soft grey light of early winter
- the last of the leaves on branches nearly bare
- Grimm and Rudy in the window as birds chirp
